by Dannielle Cresp on May 7, 2013
I have been in a bad place lately, and I just couldn’t bring myself to blog any of it. It all sounded like ‘wah, wah, wah, miserable Dannielle is miserable again’ and I just didn’t want to share the wah fest. My anxiety has been high and I’ve struggled to not let it get on top of me.
Coming home has been much harder than I anticipated. In fact, I don’t really know what I was anticipating but feeling like a square peg trying to fit in a round hole wasn’t it. Then I saw this quote (which I remade here) on Pinterest, that I’ve seen so many times before, but this time I really read it:
And I sat there and thought to myself: YES, maybe I will. So I had a bit of a think about the things I always wanted to do and each time I did, it came back to two related things: interior design and styling. I’ve always been fascinated by interior design, in fact it was what I wanted to be when I grew up (when I was 13 and everyone else wanted to be a marine biologist). But I’ve always been too scared to try.
So yesterday, I put my brave face on and signed up to a proper short course on Interior Design and I start next week! It’s been a while since I felt so excited about something, but in sharing it with people yesterday the response was overwhelmingly positive and it made me just that little bit less nervous and just a little bit more like I’m finding my feet. I’m looking for something that I will be happy working crazy hours at and will be something that can grow with me.
Maybe this is just what I’m looking for, and maybe it isn’t. But I’ll never know until I try and I’m taking the happy ‘this feels right’ feeling and running with it. 27 was always going to be a big year of change for me and one big adventure. So far it’s got lots of twists and turns that I didn’t expect, but change is good for the soul.
I have some exciting ideas that I’m going to work on, and for now I’m feeling great. I’ll take great over miserable any day. Can’t wait to tell you all about this course and how it goes.
by Dannielle Cresp on March 26, 2013
Once upon a time, June 2012 to be exact, I had a crazy dream of travelling across the United States and seeing ‘the real America’. I wanted to stop and see some of the wonderful people that my online business had given me the opportunity to get to know, and I wanted to do it in style*.
I had a crazy dream of attending the conference that so many creatives in my industry want to attend, Alt Summit. But it all seemed too far fetched. The business was having a slow month. I was feeling really low and only had $200 in savings and had bills that needed paying. So I made a ‘what have I got to lose’ plan. I never thought for a second that I could pull it off. I’d tried before and it had flopped and I just thought it would again. But it didn’t. I broke everything down into tiny little goals, and focused on them one at a time: Renew Passport. Apply for visa. Follow application process. Work job that brings in money – even though you don’t like it there. Save like crazy. Share it with your community.
Slowly but surely, the bank account grew, and the plans started to fall into place. From behind the computer screen, it all seemed so surreal. Was this actually going to happen? Could I actually get this massive trip with all the stops and actually do the whole thing without a credit card? And then in November, 2012 it started to come true. I booked the international flights. That was it, the plan was now set in motion. Everything I planned for and worked crazy hard for was actually coming true! Holy moly, I could do it!
On January 17, 2013, as so many of you know the 27 adventure started. I had a crazy dream and I made it come true 7 months after I thought it up, and that’s how I know you can do it too. It doesn’t have to apply to travel only, it can be for any BIG dream. What I realised is that it’s all about breaking it down into something that you know that you can handle. It’s about to-do lists and timelines and the biggest Eep! of all: budgets. But if I can do it, you can too, and I can show you exactly how.
Wouldn’t it be brilliant to have a plan on how to make that crazy big dream become a reality? I can tell you that the Brooklyn Bridge is as amazing as I had always imagined it, and whilst that may not be your dream, just seeing and doing what you love makes all the difference in the world. I believe that this year is the year that we should all take a chance on ourselves. To make a plan that won’t lose us anything if we don’t act, but can make things something so much more!
I can tell you first hand that living the dream is a-ma-zing and so worth the decisions I made and the hard work it took to get here. This has been by far the most amazing 3+ months of my life and I wouldn’t exchange it for anything. It’s inspired me so much that I’m already starting on the next crazy dream.
If you’ve been wanting to make your BIG dream happen but you’re stuck on the how and the when, I can help! I’ve created an e-course that takes you through the steps and helps you make the best plan possible with all the steps you need to make it work (in a way that works for you). Join me for Making Bold Plans starting April 22!
*Style=not Youth Hostels but Hotels with free Wifi.
by Dannielle Cresp on March 10, 2013
This past 24 hours of talking to friends and family about this journey and where I’m at right now has made me realise something: I did it.
I set myself the goal of making enough money to move to Canada with a trip across the USA on the way. Had you asked me what the plan was after I got here, as many of you did, I pretty much said that I’d work it out when I got here. I thought it was because I was going to trust my gut and that things have a way of working out. But I realised just today, that this part wasn’t really in the goal.
The true goal was to give me something solid and huge to focus on last year when I was so scared of the future it felt paralysing. It was to prove to myself that if I put my mind to it I could use my awesome planning and strategy skills to turn a near empty bank account and a dream that seemed impossible into a reality.
I did that. I’m here in Toronto, on my 10th stop of 10 on my 27 adventure. High fives to me!!
I don’t really know what’s coming next for me here as it’s crazy hard to find work and seemingly near impossible to find somewhere to live that I would feel comfortable living in. Tonight I’m feeling totally calm about that. I made this dream come true and whatever happens next won’t change that.
I’m proud to say that when things were tough I found something to believe in and a way to change my mind. I got to do what I love most and travel and see some amazing and very different places. I’m not great at recognising the good things, but today I’m going to say: Go Me!! I worked hard to make this happen and I’m now inspired to start making the next big thing a reality.
I also wanted to say a HUGE thank you to everyone who has supported me through this, there are so many of you who helped me feel brave enough to make this happen.
For tonight, I’m doing just fine.
by Dannielle Cresp on January 22, 2013
I planned Saturday as a slow one, and I’m so glad that I did. After all the excitement of the Helicopter flight on Friday and a bad jet lagged sleep, I was glad to take the bus out too the Outlet Mall and see if there was anything there that suited me for Alt Summit.
It was nice and calm and I enjoyed just being able to do my own thing at a very slow pace. It helped me get over the jet lag and ready for my early Sunday morning wake up for the bus trip out to the Hoover Dam!
You may not know this, but I have wanted to see the Hoover Dam for YEARS! Ever since I sat and watched a TV show on engineering marvels with my Dad. I had wanted to see it last time I was in Vegas, but it just didn’t work out. This time it was a must!
Seeing it from the air on Friday meant that I got to see it all, but seeing it up close was just fantastic! As part of the tour I booked we went into the power plant on the Nevada side and learnt how it was constructed and also got to see how it works. It was really interesting. But I have to say – my favourite part was being able to walk across it and see both lake mead and the Dam wall.
They aren’t fussy about you taking photos, in fact they encouraged it, which makes it so much better! I loved the Art Deco architecture and the fact that they haven’t tried to update it, but have just maintained it. There seemed to be a lot of love for the structure, not just because it is actually a power generator, but like they cared for it because it was so important to the landscape and to the history of the place. I think it’s nice to see that it’s heritage has been protected and that it’s treated so well.
One other cool thing that I didn’t remember from the show that I saw, is that you cross from Nevada into Arizona when you walk the bridge and they are in two different time zones. I’ve never walked across a state border before so I thought it was kind of cool!
Here are some more of the photos that I took. I took hundreds, but here are just a few of my favourites.
It was a gorgeous 18°C with very little wind. I’m so glad that I finally got a chance to see it. Lake mead is just beautiful close up as is the Dam itself.
There’s a few more photos on my Flickr too.
by Dannielle Cresp on January 3, 2013
It’s that time of year again, where everyone shares their dreams for the year. I find it really overwhelming, especially after 2012 was such a disaster (having spent the first half completely lost and the second half solely focussed on making 2013 ace).
I want to say that I’m not making big-lofty goals this year, but I guess the move kind of is one. But it’s not a pie-in-the-sky resolution, but something I’ve been working towards for 7 months. I’m instead trying to focus on my word for the year and make one or two little goals that are achievable and will bring happiness not anxiety.
A word: Adventure
A goal: To laugh more
A plan: To trust my gut and to take the opportunities that are right for me
I’ve planned my trip across the USA so I know where I’ll be on what day up until late Feb, but after that I know it will be about finding somewhere to live and making new friends and settling into a new home. I don’t need to overthink those right now. There’ll be a time for that, but for now I want to enjoy what’s coming and to let things roll.
Two weeks to go until the 27 adventure starts!
by Dannielle Cresp on September 11, 2012
Sometimes I talk about getting my ducks in a row for this next adventure, but lately the ducks are on the loose and have no desire to be put in a neat line.
I’ve not been well. I had a severe allergic reaction last month and it took me much longer to deal with it emotionally than it did physically. I also had some other very sad news that I’ve been asked not to share on the internet (fair enough) that has been playing on my mind. I’m waiting on documents before moving to the next stage of the visa application process (the actual applying part) and they have taken more than a month to arrive so far.
There’s been a lot of waiting, and swinging from ‘this is going to be amazing’ to ‘what the hell are you thinking moving 16,000km away’. It’s all part of my process. I’m not giving it up, and in fact it feels more like it’s just a natural progression for me than anything else.
I should be leaving the same week I left to live in Glasgow, 5 years before. It feels like the right time to go.
I am slowly working to get these ducks back in line and I have 4 weeks to go at the day job.
I’ve got big ideas and I’m excited to see how it turns out.
Hopefully more to come soon!
I hope you’re having an ace week.
by Dannielle Cresp on August 13, 2012
… is that there is something to work towards and it’s gives you that rush that makes you feel like you’re making the right decision.
Not everyone will like your decision, but there’s a beauty in achievable goals and in achieving them.
They make you feel worthwhile. They give you a plan (however basic). When you start achieving them, they help you remember why you’re living and what you’re living for.
I haven’t felt this driven or alive in such a long time. Working for yourself is rewarding, but it’s also heartbreaking work when things don’t go the way you planned them.
I will make this trip happen. It’s going to be awesome to see the people I’ve missed for such a long time. To see places I’ve never been. To see real snow that stays on the ground. To laugh a lot and learn a lot.
Thank you to each and every one of you that is helping me get there, you’re comments and encouragement mean so much. I don’t think I could have got this far without you.
I hope you have an ace week. x
by Dannielle Cresp on August 8, 2012
I’ve been up since 3.45am and this is my first ever video post, but I had something awesome to share with you!!
I’m really excited about going to Alt. It’s something that I’ve wanted to do for a long time but it never seemed possible before. I’m really loving that I’m making progress with this trip planning and that even if it doesn’t all work out I will still be going to Alt in January to take some awesome classes and meet some awesome people!
Argh! So excited!!!
Hope you’re having an awesome week!
by Dannielle Cresp on August 1, 2012
After a mediocre start to the week, some awesome stuff happened!
I’d been thinking for ages about selling my sewing machine and now with plans to move overseas, I couldn’t bear the thought of leaving such a beautiful machine in storage not really knowing when I’d get back to it. I was also ready to part ways with it because it was tinged a little with the sadness of giving up that business (it was the right decision, but it was a big one).
So I asked a friend on twitter if she knew anyone looking for one, she said no but could I put it in a tweet and she would Retweet it for me. I did and she did and then the most amazing thing happened. More people Retweeted it! People enquired about it! And I went to bed thinking that a couple of weeks of that and I might find a buyer.
When I woke up there was a tweet asking how much and where I was. I replied and the rest they say is history. By that afternoon a very lovely sewing enthusiast (sewer just looks wrong) had come and collected it and left me with the money for it. Hooray! It went to a loving home and I got a little bit closer to my savings goal.
I’m super excited to announce that today I made it to 43%!!!
It’s amazing to think that just a couple of months ago I had $200 in my savings account and no realistic way of making it grow. It was at $200 for 4 months, after all.
Believe me when I say if I can do it, anyone can. Maybe not as fast or in the same way, but if things line up and you’re willing to do the hard yards, you can slowly make those goals and dreams a reality. It’s rarely perfect, but sometimes it’s brilliant anyway.
I’m so excited to share this with you. Tickets go on sale for Alt next week and I’m going to get up at a ridiculous hour in the hope of being able to grab a ticket.
Maybe someone is watching over me, I don’t know, but it feels good to have a goal that’s real and makes me want to work hard of it. Life is worth living and it will happen somehow.
I can’t wait to see how things come along over the next weeks and months. Exciting times ahead!
p.s. the image is the sewing machine ready to go to it’s new home.
by Dannielle Cresp on May 17, 2012
It’s no secret that I’ve been feeling lost. In fact I blogged about it here, here and here. It’s not been a really fun time for me. But after I wrote that last of those 3 posts, I started to feel better. That light switched back on in my head and I knew what to do next.
It’s time for some changes, I have big bold goals again and it’s time for me to stop hoping for them and for me to actually get a plan to make them happen. There’s this thing with big goals though, they take money – sometimes lots of it. That’s why I’ve made the decision to do whatever it takes (just like my friend Mariella did) – even if it means making my tiny business a part time thing while I finance my dreams.
I won’t be doing anything creepy, in case you were wondering, just taking on a job working for someone else. Whether it be part time or full time.
Life is too short to wait for things to come to you, sometimes you have to rearrange your priorities so that you can make things happen quicker. It might mean that my blogging suffers, but it’s a risk that I’m willing to take.
I’m keeping my big goal close to my chest for now. When it’s closer to happening, I’ll let you know. I’m even thinking up ways where you can be a part of it too! (it’s fun i promise)
So for now I’m just happy that there is a goal ahead of me and that lost feeling has gone. Having a purpose is everything and it feels great. Even if it does scare me at times.
P.S. I ran my race over the weekend and while it was overwhelming, I’m glad I did it. See here for a picture of me after the race.