I’ve been avoiding things this last couple of weeks. I went from super inspired I CAN DO ANYTHING, after problogger to a little mouse voice: maybe I can.
My crazy, impossible dream of moving overseas has turned from an idea into somewhat of a reality. I still have just under 30% of the cash to come up with and have more paperwork to do (oh the paperwork!!) but it’s only 2 and a half months until I hop on a plane and start this next adventure, and it’s bloody scary now that it’s real.
I want to do it, please don’t get me wrong, but there’s a big difference in allowing your mind to wander about amazing places and people, to actually getting the courage to make that happen and then following through. I worry about what I’m leaving behind, and if it’s a good, solid decision. I worry about the crappy days when I’m far from home and the people who know me best. I worry about the fact that 16,000km is a long way to travel when you need to get home urgently.
It’s a process of learning to live with your decisions. That’s not a bad thing, just a reality. It’s something that I come to terms with a little more each day. I am doing all of this and working to reposition my business.
I am working on a new direction, something that I have talked about in person with many of you. I am making steps to get the best foundation possible for it, and for my future. I realised a while ago, that whatever I do in business needs to sit well with me personally too. It’s not always easy for it to be that way, but it helps me sleep better at night knowing I did the right thing.
All of these things going on at once have left me a bit overwhelmed and not sure what to say, write or feel. But I promised myself that I would be honest, on this blog, through the good and the bad. Some days are harder than others. I’ll take some more baby steps today, and some tomorrow too.
Sometimes when things happen, you didn’t think could, it shocks you for a moment and you have to remember the steps you took to get you there.
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