I’ve been avoiding things this last couple of weeks. I went from super inspired I CAN DO ANYTHING, after problogger to a little mouse voice: maybe I can.
My crazy, impossible dream of moving overseas has turned from an idea into somewhat of a reality. I still have just under 30% of the cash to come up with and have more paperwork to do (oh the paperwork!!) but it’s only 2 and a half months until I hop on a plane and start this next adventure, and it’s bloody scary now that it’s real.
I want to do it, please don’t get me wrong, but there’s a big difference in allowing your mind to wander about amazing places and people, to actually getting the courage to make that happen and then following through. I worry about what I’m leaving behind, and if it’s a good, solid decision. I worry about the crappy days when I’m far from home and the people who know me best. I worry about the fact that 16,000km is a long way to travel when you need to get home urgently.
It’s a process of learning to live with your decisions. That’s not a bad thing, just a reality. It’s something that I come to terms with a little more each day. I am doing all of this and working to reposition my business.
I am working on a new direction, something that I have talked about in person with many of you. I am making steps to get the best foundation possible for it, and for my future. I realised a while ago, that whatever I do in business needs to sit well with me personally too. It’s not always easy for it to be that way, but it helps me sleep better at night knowing I did the right thing.
All of these things going on at once have left me a bit overwhelmed and not sure what to say, write or feel. But I promised myself that I would be honest, on this blog, through the good and the bad. Some days are harder than others. I’ll take some more baby steps today, and some tomorrow too.
Sometimes when things happen, you didn’t think could, it shocks you for a moment and you have to remember the steps you took to get you there.
x
Image from © Lime Lane Photography
Sometimes it’s easy to forget how we get places. Yes, there is a huge difference between the mind wandering and going places and there are scary, frightening unknowns… but everything will be here when you get back. xoxo
Thank you for reminding me, lovely. x
I totally understand. It reminds me a rollercoaster ride…I am the classic “oh yeah let’s do it!” when we’re at home, and then the closer I get in line, the more freaked out I get, the more doubts I have, etc. But once you do it you’re always glad you did!
Oh! This is perfect, Sarah! It is just like a rollercoaster! Thank you for putting it in a way that’s so much easier to explain. You are awesome. xx
What an exciting development and by talking about the foundation that you are building; sounds like you are also going about things in a sensible way.
I’m also trying to *make things happen* and relate when you say that things need to sit well. I think it’s a slower process but ultimately believe/ hope that this will lead to attracting the kind of people, sponsors and lifestyle I’d like to have.
Keep inspiring!
Thanks so much Cheryl! I’m glad to hear you’re getting a solid foundation for your business too. x
You wouldn’t be human if you didn’t get the yips every now and then. But hey, you have moxed past that first step and taking action. And we are all part of the small neighbourhood that is Twitter. Not far away at all! {great picture ;) by the way}
Thanks Kellie! I think Twitter will be a lifeline during those first few months of settling in. Glad to know that you’ll be on the other end. xx