WHY? is a question that I get asked a lot when I talk about my plans to pack up my life and move overseas. Why Now? Why do you have to go? My answer swings between ‘Now is as good a time as any’ and ‘Because I have to’.
I do have a reason. A good one. To tell you the truth, it’s because life is fleeting. For some people there are no ‘one day’s. This time is our time and I want to live it intentionally and with love and joy in my heart. My mum never got her ‘one day’s. She had her babies, and sadly passed away at 27. I’m not doing this for her, I’m doing it because of her.
It is our circumstance that lets us see the world from our unique points of view. This is mine. I want to live somewhere new and to face all the challenges that come with that. I want to not only be alive but to feel it. There is nothing like testing yourself in a new place to feel that way. I don’t mean putting myself in risky situations, it’s more the amplification of everything when you travel. The sights, the smells, the air, the people. It’s all foreign and you have to feel to adjust.
Travel for me is often very healing. It has taught me to forgive myself and my mistakes more easily. It has taught me to smile more and be more outgoing.
There is a reason for me doing this, even if you don’t quite understand it. It’s time for me, as 27 approaches, to make it the best 27 it could possibly be.
Next year will be about adventure, making new friends, falling in love with a new city, finding out how I fit in that place and reminding myself that mistakes are ok and that plans make for some great times. It’s about remember what it’s like to truly live and to recognise how far I’ve come.
I’m calling it early, I think my 2013 word of the year will be Adventure, and like this year’s word Determination, it will help to keep me on track on the tough days and on the good ones too.