I realise that I’m already in that frame of mind that will get old to other people really quickly. I’m focused on this trip and I’m a bit boring. it’s my goal and because of it, I don’t have all that much to say that isn’t related to it.
It’s probably a good thing in some ways as it’s got me out of my own head, and I’m not dwelling on the negative. But I’m trying to tone down my excitement/anxiety/constant thoughts of this trip. I’m just not very good at it. It’s been a long time since I’ve been this enthusiastic about anything that wasn’t business related.
It seems all of my decisions are now geared towards this trip and this life change. I bought these gorgeous shoes (pictured) with the intention of taking them with me. They are comfy TOMS that I think will fit nicely into my bag but will also be awesome for flights. It’s a bit ridiculous as it’s still six months away, and so many people make these decisions and just up and move within a couple of months. Everything is a process for me.
I need to think it over. To stew on it. To think of the worst case scenarios. And what my plan is if the worst comes true. That’s how I work. It prepares me for something that in a split second I go from thinking this is the best idea ever, to me being totally crazy for thinking I can do something so frivolous and let’s admit it, selfish. This isn’t for anyone else. This is for me.
That’s something that I need to slowly convince myself is a good thing. Will everyone be ok without me? Will they hate that I missed their birthdays and special events? Will skype be enough to keep me in touch with them?
I’m guessing that this blog is going to be pretty focused on this over the next few months. I hope it doesn’t get boring and repetitive, but it probably will. If you’ve met me, I kind of am.
I will be making the applications for things soon, and in exciting news I am nearly 25% of the way there! YAY!! I’m thinking of putting up a thermometer in the sidebar so I have a visual of how I’m going. haha. (That could be a little over the top)
I hope you have an awesome week!
haha! It’s always good to have a plan. “luck favours the prepared” as Edna says. You’ll be great. (And I love the stories of your mouse ears :) )
thanks julie! :) x
I love reading the excitement & passion in your voice & am a stewer too so totally support you! Plus, it’s fun to live vicariously through you! Xx
Thanks lovely Cat. I’m feeling really empowered about this decision. xx
Your title made me laugh, as it sounds a little familiar to me! But like Cat says, the more you tell us the more we get to share in your adventure (and half the fun is the lead in, the build up, the planning!). So please – share away! And congrats on hitting 25%! I quite like your thermometer idea, can you colour code it too?
(ps. I get excited about things waaay in advance too. Just this morning I started drafting a blog post that I won’t be able to publish for another six months or so! But starting to write about things I’m mulling over and getting all jittery about is fun…)
Thanks Emily! We are very much a like in some ways :)
I will definitely continue to share, I think the next couple of months will have some cool things happen.
I can’t wait to read your blog post that’s 6 months away! It sounds so exciting!! :)
I’m not sure if I can colour code the thermometer, I will definitely have a look! :)
I think we are all a bit like that – when we were getting married, that was all anyone talked about, etc. Now they want to know about babies (ahhh!).
I obsessively plan for trips that far out too – I think it’s half the fun of the whole thing! Can’t wait to hear about your planning and don’t worry about boring us ;-)
Babies already?! You’ve got plenty of time! :)
Thanks lovely! I will definitely share more as I go along!