Last week was a haze. The end of July always is. Thursday marked 27 years without my mum, and I was sad in ways I never imagined I could be. Inconsolable is an over used word, but for Thursday it was fitting.
For me, time doesn’t make it easier. It makes me sadder. All the things she missed out on. From life events of her children to world events and the way technology has changed the world completely since 1986. I miss her now more than ever.
Thursday wasn’t spent on the tropical island paradise I’d promised myself. Though we did see the ocean in all it’s winter glory. It was a tough fog to pull through, but as the clock ticked to midnight, I felt the fog lifting, and like I could breathe again. This year may not be turning out how I had planned, but maybe the outcome will be better.
Thursday made me realise that this blog has said all it needs to say for now. It’s been a wonderful journey, but it’s time to let it rest. I’ve decided that my focus is now on building a happy future, and I don’t feel the need to write out the sadness anymore. I may be back at some point to share the NYC photos and the Canada ones too. But right now I want to look forward, not back and the new blog allows me to do that much better.
If you’d like to see how the 27 adventure changed everything, I wrote about it over at Oh My Handmade Goodness!
Thank you for your support over the last 3 years. This blog has been an amazing journey of finding my voice, taking big leaps and turning what could be failures on their head.
More adventure awaits, no doubt. Maybe I’ll be back some day to tell you all about it.
Don’t forget that you’re awesome and you can do anything you set your mind to if you want to.